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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Welcome to my nightmare

I'm sitting at work, during lunchtime and I really want a *%$@&#^ cigarette. But I'm not going to have one. Anyway, yesterday I said I'd give a run-down of my dreams, so here goes:

On Sunday nite I dreamt (<-- is that how you spell it?) that I was at a remote building. There were a few people there too. Someone turned up and locked us in. They slid these massive steel doors (like 'blast doors' or something) closed and we were traped. I went looking for an exit, but there were guard dogs chasing me. I'm pretty sure I found my way out eventually, but I remember running and being scared a lot. Afterwards (or was it before? The 'dream' was two days ago) I was out in a field, swingning a rope with something on the end (a chair I think). I swung it faster and faster, and then let go. It was then I realised there were people at the bottom of the hill (I was in a field/on a hill, you know how dreams are). I saw a lady with a pram, and instantly knew what was going to happen.
For what seemed like a long time I waited, then a thing looking like a small plane (like about 4-5 feet) came hurtling strait down and crashed just next to the pram. The mother screamed, I crouched down with my hands covering my head; I think I was mumbling something.

Turns out it missed the child, but It was a close run thing. On the next nite I remembered another dream, this one was a bit more friendly. I'll write it up in the next day or two (I'd better get back to work, lol). If anyone can explain what I have just given away about my inner psyche, let me know.

I am still not smoking, and it is killing me, but it will kill me if i start again, so I'm pretty much scr*wed. Oh yeah, and happy valentine's day everyone (bah, humbug). ( , y , )

Monday, February 12, 2007

Day two of non-smoking


OK, I've made it to the end of day two!!! I'm pretty stoked, but I'm also not going to get ahead of myself. A few years ago I went about 10 days and then started up again, so I need to keep an eye on myself. Sorry about the picture, but it pretty much sums up my brain function at the moment. Anyway...

I started quitting on Sunday, and went to a mate's place for a barbie, and everyone was smoking. It was tough, but I figure if I can get through that (drinking beers, eating plenty of food etc.), anything else should be OK.

Well, today was of-course Monday. Working and not smoking isn't too hard, it's the morning, the lunch break and after work that had me grinding my teeth. Sh|t, I really wanted to go and get some smokes, but at the same time I knew the will-power was there to avoid it. I'm quietly confident.

On Sunday night I had some NASTY nightmares. I havn't remembered a dream for a while, but I sure remember this one. I havn't got time to go into it, but I'll write it up soon. Good to be back going on and on about my my pisssweak excuse for a problem. Want to tell me where to stick it? Leave a comment or chuck a message in a bottle, whatever floats your boat.